I Don't Think I will Be Making Banana Bread Anytime Soon

I never got into the trend of making banana bread or trying to better myself through the art of making trendy foam coffees. I bought a Nintendo DS, bought some two-player games, and tried to cope. I got a dog and tried to do at-home workouts with the promise of online tutorials and Instagram challenges. I participated in the Sunday quizzes on Zoom with friends and waited. I waited and waited and I’m still waiting. For me, there is no peace while COVID rages on. I don’t feel the same as I did before and I am just trying to hang in there. I wonder if I will walk away thinking I learned a new skill or gained new knowledge.  Quite honestly, I think I will come out of it apprehensive that this will happen again and be a little more untrusting. You may not agree with this and it’s fine but for me, it’s a pause in time, a time with very little growth. So, I’m not going to come out of it toned or with a year’s knowledge of cooking. I will come out of it appreciating what I took for granted and understand that it’s all more fragile than I took it to be. I won’t have looked at this in a positive light but perhaps with a deep moment of reflection, I may see how I have changed.  So, do what you need to get through it, laugh, cry, maybe drink too much wine. There is no right way to handle what we’re going through. Not being okay is okay. Not much has changed as we roll into 2021.  There are struggles to be had and the pandemic is not over.   It is important to protect your emotional health over the next few months. So, do what you need to do to maintain your sanity.